“Running away and leaving behind the people you care about? That isn’t love. Though you might just want to keep them safe, shutting them out of your life only hurts them more. The point is, I have people I can count on. I’ll make it through.”
– Serah in Final Fantasy XIII
watched ookami kodomo no ame to yuki (wolf children: ame and yuki) yesterday
found it from some google ad on some website, and the art looked really nice (first pic), and “wolf children” sounded cool, and quote said it’s like the next miyazaki or something, so. gave it a try.
and it was a really interesting story.
like wow, who thought of it.
it dealt with you know, letting go of your children at like a whole new level. it was letting go of your pets too, like ‘fox and the hound’ style. #wolf kid problems
they had this fight ame and yuki, talking about whether they are humans or wolves and we were like #halfa problems; all the halfas go through this! xD like danny phantom. and lol. inuyasha could be watching this and connecting with it [and crying, cause he probably gets emotional during sad movies].
it was actually really well done, ‘cause the animation was first of all AMAZING (such attention to detail! and they moved so realistically (all the BACKGROUND people!) that for the first few parts i kept getting distracted by all the 3D-esque movement of 2D people, and kept having to go back to see what they were actually saying). xD
and there were a lot of emotional parts.
i was choking up for a lot of it, esp. like the first half, because i could feel the large wolf-man shaped hole in their lives that the dad left there and it was not a pleasant feeling. like each time the super-resilient crazy girl was hard at work doing something i kept thinking oh, he would have been doing this. he could do this so much easier. he could run after the wolf kids and catch up. he could teach them wolf ways. AHH.
if we were watching this in theatres, i’d be bawling.
and i like the ame and yuki names —- “rain” and “snow”, so pretty —- i kept getting them mixed up at the beginning, ‘cause they’re so similar though lololz
oh and i liked the mom-dad couple they were cute!
(some spoilers coming up; don’t read any more of this postif you’d like to avoid them.)
OH and THANK YOU for never making her get old D: :D
i was happy that she wasn’t growing even as the kids went from 0 to 10.
and they didn’t even make her get old at the end of the movie, which i was so happy about because i don’t like when they do that. XD
and i like sou-chan he’s such a good kid. i knew he was good.
i like his relationship with the little girl.
and oh yeah
we LOVED the little ame kid (was just about to call him yuki oops)
when he was a cute little wimp
i love the wimpy type. they’re so adorable.
and the little girl was so evil oh my god. so bad.
but then they grew up and they like switched
i like the girl’s cute little blue dress with the white flowers.
i just realized she always had one.
so either the mom made her the dress when she was in grade one and then just kept making her a new one in the same style each year as she grew, or the girl just always wore the same clothes and the dress just grew with her and i’m going to go with the second choice because it just makes more sense to me.
i was saying we should have a wolfy marathon: wolf children, then werewolf boy, then inuyasha which is not really wolf-y but close enough.
i think i have a thing for wolves (not as much as the mom though! she’s crazy haha. every time she said she likes wolves, we were like “no, really? [sarcasm] she likes them a little TOO much. xD”)
(oh, a lot of the images in this post seem like fanart, but i just found them off of google, so i’m not sure who drew them. if anyone knows who the original artists of the images are, just let me know and i’ll credit. ^^)
one of those days.
it was one of those days when you wake up feeling groggy and rub your hands over your eyes a little too hard so that when you open them everything looks too dark to be a morning, and you blink and blink for a while until you realize it’s not just you, and it really is dark, and it takes you a while longer until you know the alarm clock went off early, and the whole world is still asleep, and at that moment, you feel like you’re the only one in the house that has an awareness of reality right now.
and sometimes it’s when you listen to pop love songs while writing a business letter, and accidentally end up writing meaningless lyrics instead of meaningless thus-es, and therefore-s and other words that no one really ever says.
and when you sit back and remember how ten years earlier, life used to center around school and friends and everything was so easy and carefree and how now you finally know how complicated life can get, and then you look out the window and see a skinny bird feed a skinny worm to its pudgy babies, and remember that ten years earlier, you used to think about how ten years before that, everything was just crayons and new words and wonderful, and how high school finally taught you how complicated life can get, and then you realize maybe life is not so hard after all.
and when you sit on a chair but it feels harder than usual, and you remember cloudy, dirty days, that seemed fun and muddy in the moment, but then you realized you got your friend’s favourite top permanently stained and wonder what it would be like to be able to turn back time, and even if you did, would you have made the same mistake. and if a mistake is just a mistake, and you were young and crazy and didn’t know what you were doing, will you still be punished and try all types of ways to wash the stains out and cry when you let yourself realize you never can.
and what if then you are ten, but feel like seven, once you find out your favourite plushie from years ago still loves you and remembers how you forgot it at your old house when you moved, but it’s too late because you’re in a different place now and you wonder if things had been different, would they have been better, and you can’t help but laugh because wondering about it is stupid since things are pretty good, and things can not be different, and if they had been different, they may have as well been worse. and a better child may find the plushie and be happier with it and never leave it behind the way you did. but if you had been more careful from the beginning, maybe you at least wouldn’t have had the muddy top. maybe.
and so you lie on the bed while your mom moves around the furniture in the house without your help, and a mirror you forgot you owned shows up on the wall in front of you, and you see a monster who sits around doing nothing all day, and expects everything to be done for it, and the food to always be on the table for every meal, without ever stepping into the kitchen itself.
and you turn on the television and a black and white movie that’s not really that old is on, and you start watching even though you have no idea what’s going on, and wonder what the world would look like in black and white, and if colours make things harder or prettier, and maybe pretty things are more than just that.
and you put down the novel about the mentally-ill kid and the hormone-crazed teenagers who smoke and drink and sniff and the kid who killed himself before he got to high school, because you feel sad for the way things could have been, and you feel bad for breaking rules, and switching sides, and not taking good care of things, and hiding things from the people you love and wishing you could even hide it from yourself.
so you sat down on the grass, not caring about
getting grass stains on the back of your jeans
and stared at the cloudless sky and asked him
"do you know what any of this means?"
and he looked you in the eyes and said
and you knew he was lying,
but you just lied back and smiled.
“The main rule of writing is that if you do it with enough assurance and confidence, you’re allowed to do whatever you like. (That may be a rule for life as well as for writing. But it’s definitely true for writing.) So write your story as it needs to be written. Write it honestly, and tell it as best you can. I’m not sure that there are any other rules. Not ones that matter.”
(I love this guy. :))
Story That I Do Not Yet Have a Title for so Really Should Come Up with a Working-Title
So, as I mentioned in two previous posts, I am attempting to compose a story. It is terrifying, because I haven’t actually decided to properly go for anything like this before, but it is also exciting because of that same reason, and the fact that it feels good to work on a story, it feels really good to write (a stage I haven’t actually reached yet) and to develop storylines and characters. I am excited for this adventure!
Under the cut is an outtake from the very first thing I wrote on this story, I got struck by inspiration from this one line of the song Little House (Amanda Seyfriend sings it in Dear John), the line goes “Please don’t make a fuss, it won’t go away.” I wrote it down and a scene started forming in my head, as fast as I could I started writing it down. It ended up being 900 words and I wrote it in the span of 30 minutes. Down below is the first ~480 words. Keep in mind this is a first draft, and the story is still in its developing stages, some things may therefore change.
Sounds amazing! O:
I wanna’ read more~
Do you know what kind of genre(s) the story is going to have yet? :3
New thing #014: Welcoming the new year! :D
“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.
Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.
So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.
Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever.
So, what are all the new things everyone is planning to do this new year? :D
Happy New Year, Everyone!
Wishing you all the best for the year 2014! :D
New thing #009: Conversing with a Street Musician
Walking around downtown, and every couple of blocks we came across super talented musicians just playing their instruments on the corner of street crossings. And I just felt like they’re so under-appreciated. There were singers, a keyboarder, drummers, and they were all amazing.
Even though I wasn’t carrying any cash with me to give to them, I just really wanted to let them know how beautiful their music was; it really just brightened the street.
And when I told one of them how much I loved their music, they invited me to try playing their instrument! And it was an instrument I’ve never tried playing before so, it was something new! :D Awesome.
So we played do-re-mi, and then a couple of lines from Wavin’ Flag by K’naan~
Good day, good day. :)